Dear God,
How have I wound up at this strange point in my life? My Henry has been gone five years. I never expected, at my age, to have another man in my life, especially one who is quite a bit younger than me.
We met by chance, and my heart fluttered when we shook hands. He pursued me, something that has puzzled me, for I have seen younger and prettier women flirt with him. What does he see in me?
I love him, at least as much as I can, for my dear Henry is still in my heart and always will be. Can I love two mean equally? Can I love Samuel as much as he needs and deserves? I hope I do and that our love will last.
Dear God, I know what I am doing is morally wrong, for he is married. I know I should tell Samuel good-bye and not see him again. So far, I’ve not been able to.
Having him in my life lifts my moods and brings a peace of mind that had been missing since Henry’s death. I did not realize how much I had missed that peace of mind until Samuel appeared. Nor how much I needed it.
Dear God, help me with this. Samuel says he prayed for a good woman and You sent me to him. I don’t know. I know You are all-powerful and can do anything, but I do not know Your intentions with Samuel and me.
Please send me some sign. One way or the other. A clear and powerful sign that I can easily understand.
Thank You for all that You have done for me.
Amen.
How have I wound up at this strange point in my life? My Henry has been gone five years. I never expected, at my age, to have another man in my life, especially one who is quite a bit younger than me.
We met by chance, and my heart fluttered when we shook hands. He pursued me, something that has puzzled me, for I have seen younger and prettier women flirt with him. What does he see in me?
I love him, at least as much as I can, for my dear Henry is still in my heart and always will be. Can I love two mean equally? Can I love Samuel as much as he needs and deserves? I hope I do and that our love will last.
Dear God, I know what I am doing is morally wrong, for he is married. I know I should tell Samuel good-bye and not see him again. So far, I’ve not been able to.
Having him in my life lifts my moods and brings a peace of mind that had been missing since Henry’s death. I did not realize how much I had missed that peace of mind until Samuel appeared. Nor how much I needed it.
Dear God, help me with this. Samuel says he prayed for a good woman and You sent me to him. I don’t know. I know You are all-powerful and can do anything, but I do not know Your intentions with Samuel and me.
Please send me some sign. One way or the other. A clear and powerful sign that I can easily understand.
Thank You for all that You have done for me.
Amen.
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