Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Notes in Grandma's Christmas Linens

A glowing sunset puts gold in your hair. You are my treasure that gold cannot replace.
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Christmas dreams . . . glistening snow, icicles on the eaves, sleigh rides with you . . . a crackling fire, creamy hot chocolate, carols on the gramophone
* * * * *
You brushed my hair tonight, slowly and gently, easing out the tangles. We talked of our day together, the peace we had shared.
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Wrapped in your arms,
So warm and strong,
I know exactly
Where I belong

Saturday, November 27, 2021

Notes in Grandma's Gravy Boat

Snow came in the night and sparkles in the early morning sunlight. I watch you sleep while awakening birds add music to the day.
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Blazing candles on a tree of green cannot outshine our love.
* * * * *
Frost in the air
Birds on the wing
Your love for me
Makes my heart sing
* * * * *
You made a wreath from cedar branches, then added holly and bittersweet. I made a burlap bow for it, and you hung the wreath on the front door. Our cabin is ready for the holidays.
* * * * *
I awoke on Christmas morning with you by my side. The most delightful Christmas present I’ve ever had.

Wednesday, November 24, 2021

Leaving Home

    I slowly walk through the house, looking at what is in each room and how it is presented. 
    The dining room is immaculate, the cherry table and chairs gleaming in the afternoon sunlight through the floor-to-ceiling windows on the west wall. The kitchen is spotless, stainless-steel counters shining from the scrubbing they received this morning; all small appliances are stored in their respective cabinets, and the floor has been freshly waxed.
    The pantry, utility room and mud room look as if they have never been used – everything spotless and in its place. The downstairs half-bath, situated under the staircase also appears as if it has never been used.
    I walk to the living room and inspect it for its readiness for company. All is as expected, perfectly cleaned and arranged, couch pillows fluffed nicely, firewood and kindling in the fireplace awaiting a match to bring forth warmth.
    The office is as Frank likes it, everything filed neatly, the leather-covered chair pushed up to the mahogany desk, inside shutters closed against prying eyes. I walk out of the office and go to the stairs.

    The carpet on the stairs has been thoroughly vacuumed, and there is no hint of dust on the oaken banister, nor on the baseboards highlighting the carpet’s rich colors in the upstairs hallway. Doorknobs are sparkling clean, and no spider webs dangle from the ceiling today.
    I check the guest bedrooms; there is nothing out of place, nor anything that needs to be done to them nor their en suite bathrooms. The upstairs bathroom is sanitized, and monogrammed towels are hanging neatly on rods by the sink and walk-in shower. 

    I walk into the master bedroom and stop at the foot of the bed. The walnut sleigh bed has been polished by two generations of women’s hard-working hands. It is still as sturdy and beautiful as it was one hundred years ago. The double wedding ring quilt shows its colors as well today as it did when Frank’s grandmother hand-stitched it for us.
    The dresser and its matching bench, and the chest-of-drawers, are excellent examples of a craftsman’s dedication to his work. A runner I crocheted decorates the top of the chest-of-drawers.
    Satisfied the bedroom furniture and its accoutrements are properly tidy, I step to the walk-in closet and open the double doors. The contents are all in their proper place and neatly stored. I walk into the closet, mindlessly running my fingertips along the clothing there – Frank’s shirts, suits, casual clothing on the left, my tee’s, jeans, a few pairs of chinos and some button-up shirts on the right. The rear of the closet branches, Frank’s formal clothing and assorted shoes to the left, mine to the right. Tuxedos and sparkly evening gowns, shoes to match, and shoes for any sort of weather, a few purses on my side, and to the far right, unobscured by clothing of any sort, is a safe. 
    I regard the safe for a few moments. I know the combination, and the wealth that is inside – loose diamonds, rubies, emeralds, some bundles of cash, several expensive pieces of jewelry, and a hundred or so ounces of gold. I examine the diamond-encrusted wedding band on my left hand, spin it around on my finger a couple of times, then remove it and place it on top of the safe.
    I glance down at my clothing – V-neck T-shirt, Levi’s, well-worn Dingo boots – and ponder my decision to leave with nothing but the clothes I am wearing. Wise? Probably  not. Heartfelt? Yes.
    I leave the closet, not closing the doors behind me, walk out of the bedroom, down the hall and back down the stairs. When I arrive at the front door, I turn and gaze across the foyer at the house I once considered my home. No more.

    I turn back to the front door with its etched-glass panels and open it. I take a book of matches from my back pocket, remove one, strike it, and toss it onto the gasoline-soaked Persian rug lying on the highly-varnished oak floor, then step across the threshold onto the front stoop, shut the door behind me as flames erupt on the rug, and walk away.

Thursday, November 18, 2021

Outlaw Love: 3

    I checked the fit of my dress in the bedroom mirror and decided that I looked pretty good tonight. It didn’t really matter how I looked as I was going to the local high school’s senior prom with my brother-in-law Richard, but I didn’t want him to be embarrassed to be seen with me.
    Though Richard was good-looking and fun to be around, he was somewhat shy around girls his age, so by the time he’d worked up the courage to ask Angie Paulson to the prom, she already had a date. He had been complaining about not having a date and I asked him, “Why don’t you go solo? There might be a pretty girl there solo also.” Women’s lib was in full swing so I thought there’d be a few there.
    “Aw, Shelley, the ones who’d go alone wouldn’t be pretty,” Richard replied. He went to the refrigerator and extracted a can of Coke. When he turned around and popped the top, he said, “You could go with me. You’ve still got the dress you wore when you went to your senior prom, don’t you.”
    Evidently Richard had been listening when his older sister and I had been discussing clothes in our closets that we’d probably never wear again.
    “I do. But do you think you would enjoy yourself if I went with you?”
    “Why wouldn’t I? You and I always laugh at the same jokes.”
    Just then Stephen came into the kitchen; he’d been golfing and was ready for supper, which was on the stove. “What joke are you two laughing about?” he asked.
    “No joke,” Richard told Stephen. “I asked Shelley to go to the prom with me and she doesn’t think I’d enjoy myself. Tell her to go with me.”
    “Why not?” Stephen replied. “No one here much knows you, and it’d give you something different to do.” He grinned at me. “Besides, Richard needs to be seen out with someone besides his sister and aunts.”
    I had to laugh at that. One of Richard and Stephen’s sisters was only twelve so Richard was her unofficial chauffeur. Two of their aunts didn’t drive, so Richard took them to the grocery store, their doctors, clothes shopping and to church on Sundays. How he had time to work part-time to pay for his car and gas always amazed me.
    “Okay, I’ll go,” I told them. I hadn’t done much socializing since Stephen and I moved to his home town a few months earlier. I did free-lance proofreading for publishing companies so didn’t get out of the house much. Most of the people I’d met were family and church members.

    So, here I am, on prom night, checking how I look, seeing if my hair is behaving, and wondering why I was doing this. Oh yeah, something different to do. 
    Satisfied that my hair is in place, my dress fits nicely, and my shoes aren’t too tight, I walk to the living room where Richard is waiting for me, wearing a nice-fitting black suit. Not a tux, but he doesn’t need one. It’s a wonder girls aren’t calling him all the time.
    We go out to Richard’s well-maintained Lexus. He bought it from an elderly neighbor when her doctor and her children insisted she stop driving. Maybe that was why his aunts always wanted him to drive them around; a luxury car driven  by a good-looking young man let them impress other women their age.
    We arrive at the high school, park and walk into the gym. The prom theme is “Magic Is In The Air” and the gym is decorated accordingly, with plenty of sparkle on nearly every surface. Silver glitter on the floor swirls in the slight breezes generated by the swish of the girls’ evening gowns.
    Everyone seems to be in a good mood, laughing and speaking to everyone they meet. Richard and I get some questioning looks, and he introduces me to a few of his friends; I have met one or two and they seem amused by my attendance.
    Once into the main part of the gym, among the tables and near the dance floor, one of Richard’s friends leans over and asks, “Did you see the limo outside?”
    Richard says, “Yeah. Who’s in it?”
    “You should know,” the friend replies. “Jasper Elwood, who else?”
    “That figures,” Richard says. “He’s always trying to impress someone. What’s he wearing, a baby-blue tux?”
    “Worse,” the friend says. “A red crushed-velvet one.”
    “Oh boy,” Richard says.
    While I am wondering whether or not to ask Richard about this Jasper, he finds an empty table and we sit down. As the band starts playing, we are joined by two of Richard’s friends and their dates. Introductions are made: Chad and Rose, David and Julie. The conversation centers around who is with who and who looks the best in their fancy clothes.

    “Oh shit,” mutters Chad. “Tell me Jasper is not coming to our table.”
    “Jasper is not coming to our table,” David says and laughs, as he is turning to see what Chad is looking at. “Oh shit. Jasper is coming to our table.”
    I turn to my left and see who I assume is Jasper walking toward us. He has on a red crushed-velvet tux, and wears it well. Black hair curls over the collar of the tux, and sweeps across his forehead. While not classically handsome, nor as good-looking as Richard, Jasper makes an impression on me. Immediately.
    Ignoring everyone else at the table, Jasper extends his hand to me and asks, “May I have this dance?”
    I look at Richard and raise an eyebrow. He nods, but his expression is not friendly.
    I turn back to Jasper, and answer, “Yes, you may.” I put my hand in his and am astonished at the jolt I feel as he wraps his fingers around mine. I am surprised that my legs support me when I stand and Jasper pulls me closer to him. We walk to the dance floor and I thank all my lucky stars that the band is playing a waltz, for I don’t believe I have the strength to do any dance requiring rhythm and movement.
    We step onto the dance floor and Jasper pulls me into his arms and I gasp. The heat I feel emanating from him is startling. He pulls me closer and all I can do is hope I don’t collapse on the dance floor, as my entire body is wanting to fully relax into Jasper’s embrace and never leave. He whispers in my ear, “Stay with me, babe.”
    All I can say is, “Oh, yes.” I really have no choice for Jasper’s right arm is around my waist so tight I don’t think I could leave his embrace even if I wanted to.

    Jasper holds me close through the waltz. As the band does the intro to a faster song, Jasper guides me through the other couples on the dance floor, back to the table.
    Once there, he keeps a firm grip on my hand, and tells Richard, “She’s going home with me.”
    That I do not expect, nor do I expect Richard’s response, a gruff, “Like hell she is. She’s my sister-in-law, not some skank like you usually date.”
    “I don’t care who she is,” Jasper replies. “She’s mine now and no one else’s.”
    Richard stands up slowly, and takes a step toward Jasper and me. I put my hand on his chest and say, “Please don’t start anything because of me.”
    He looks down at my hand, gently removes it from his chest, and before I am aware of his intent, punches Jasper in the jaw.
    Jasper returns the punch. Rose, Julie and I can only watch as Chad and David join the fray, trying desperately to separate Jasper and Richard.

Two hours, some broken furniture, five cops and dozens of questions later, Jasper and I are in the limo.
    “Babe,” he says, I don’t even know your name, but when I saw you, I knew you were the one for me for the rest of my life. Will you be my wife?”
    I look into his deep brown eyes and wonder at this strange state of affairs. I had thought I was in love with Stephen, that we had passion in our life, but the instant Jasper touched me, I knew his love was the love I had been needing.
    I reply, “Yes, I will.”
    Jasper pulls me to him, gives me a tender kiss, and tells the chauffeur to take us home. As we sit close together, his arm around my shoulders, my head on his chest, Jasper says, “Babe, I still don’t know your name.”

Sunday, November 14, 2021

In Aunt Eleanor's Button Box: 3

Samuel,
    I never expected to have love again in my life after my dear Henry died. Meeting you was unexpected and your profession of love even more unexpected. My feelings for you are also unexpected, so much so that I do not trust them.
    I am afraid to call what I feel “love” for I do not trust my own heart. If I can’t trust my own heart, how am I to trust you and your heart, Samuel? I want your love for me to be as strong and true and encompassing as Henry’s was. Can it be? Will it be? I want to love you as easily and completely as I loved Henry. Can I? I don’t know.
    Neither did I know that I could fear being loved and loving again. Nor do I know from where the fear arises. The intensity of my feelings for you? The suddenness of this? My lack of trust in both our hearts?
    Samuel, I know this vexes you. I wish it didn’t. I don’t know how to deal with all this, to accept that it is possible for me to have love once more in my life, to embrace you and your love, and to open  my heart fully to you.
    You have upset my life, scattered my assumptions to the four winds. You have added passion to my existence and restored laughter to my days.
    And still I am afraid of the future, distrustful of our hearts.
    Samuel, one day at a time is all I can handle right now. I need to overcome the fear, and to learn to trust you as I trusted Henry.
    Please understand. I am not turning away from you, only requesting your patience.

Eleanor

Saturday, November 13, 2021

Writing A Love Story

    It would help to have romance on the mind instead of hiding dead bodies, Angelique thought. Yesterday she and Monica had discussed hiding dead bodies as a plot device, and that discussion was lingering, blocking thoughts of romance. A deadline was looming with this story; she had procrastinated far too long.

    Okay, Travis and Marie. Where were they? Hmmm . . . Restaurant? No. She’d used that a lot. Ballgame? Nah. Just thinking about the noise made Angelique discard that idea.
    Travis and Marie. What do they both like? Music. Concert? No. Too loud for her thoughts. Maybe riding around listening to the radio? That might work.
    Travis’s Escalade or Marie’s Camry? Escalade. That was easy. Does it matter what color it is? Angelique thought about that for a couple of moments and figured that wasn’t important since the story would be set in the nighttime.
    Music. Did they like the same thing? Maybe. Or have different tastes but close enough that whatever a local radio station was playing would work. Travis was too tight to splurge on Sirius. Driving an Escalade was one thing but paying for music when radio stations provided it for free wasn’t in his way of thinking.
    Had they eaten a meal together before they started riding around? Tough to answer. Was this a weekend date or had they decided to meet up an hour or two after work? Okay. Travis could’ve just gone to Marie’s around seven to see if she wanted to ride around a while. That’d work.
    Did Marie worry about how she was dressed? Probably not. She and Travis usually dressed casually and wouldn’t be concerned with their clothing on a workday night. Jeans, T-shirts and loafers would be fine.
    How long would they ride around? A couple of hours? Maybe three? That would depend on the weather, traffic, moonlight, where they were, and their work schedules for the following day.

    Angelique thought that was a good start. What now?

    Hmmm . . . Had Travis and Marie been dating long? Hmmm . . . Problematic. Too short a time and he wouldn’t be apt to just appear on her doorstep and say, “Wanna ride around a while?”  Too long a time and they’d either be living together or married. What to do, what to do? Six months sounded about right.
    Do they love each other? Most likely or Travis wouldn’t be stopping by at random times. Have they confessed their love to each other? That was a toughie. Marie is a modern, self-sufficient woman who doesn’t think a woman needs a man in her life to feel complete. She might not tell Travis she loves him until she feels the time is right for both of them.
    Would Travis tell Marie he loves her before she says anything to him? No telling. Travis is hard-working and honest, but has many wild ways about him; one is not wanting to be tied down.

    Okay, I’m getting somewhere, Angelique decided. Now for the real toughie. Will  riding around under a full moon, with romantic songs on the radio lead to back-seat sex? The Escalade was certainly roomy enough. Had they done that before? 
    Oh, boy. I just threw myself a curve ball, Angelique said to herself.
    Yeah. They’re adults, not silly teenagers, and if the mood strikes and the urge is there, they’d have sex wherever they wanted. 
    Would Travis spend the rest of the night at Marie’s? Maybe. Did he ever do that? Sometimes. 

    Alright, Angelique thought . . . I’ve got the basics, now to start writing. She sat down at her computer, opened up a Word file and started typing.

    Marie walked to the front door and opened it. Travis was standing there, dressed as usual in Levi’s, a Carhartt T-shirt and Justin boots. She smiled at him. His presence always made her heart beat faster.
    “What’re you up to?” she asked him.
    Travis replied, “Wanna go for a ride in the moonlight?”
    “Sure,” Marie said. “Let me get my keys and lock up.”

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